Reinventing Carrie

This is the hardest part, where to begin especially if it seems too big so I looked at it like Algebra and broke it up into small pieces and only focused on that. Where you start depends on how far you fell, I fell very far and had to start at the beginning, I wasn’t even bathing or changing clothes, I spent the majority of my time in bed so everything around me unraveled. I needed to completely start over and everywhere I looked it was just chaos. So I set up a few daily tasks to start that included self care as well, we are no good to anyone if we aren’t taking care of ourselves. I had to rehab my body as well because I had severe atrophy and if I can’t walk I can’t do anything. My journey is just at the beginning. My first ‘routine’, which I have built upon and will continue to do, was simple.

• Wake up and get out of bed
• I can have one cup of coffee and watch the news
• Take a bath
• Get fully dressed
• Make bed
• Meditate
• Postive Affirmations
• Declutter one room
• Walk for 20 minutes
• Read
• Do 1 load of laundry

If you have an iPhone you have an app called tasks, I have found it to be very helpful

Once I finished decluttering my house I added clean one room a day, the meditation and positive affirmations have helped me keep up and not get overwhelmed. To be real it takes at least 30 days to create new habits so this is a process. Some days are a real struggle to get my tasks completed and some days I don’t do everything I wanted to do but the meditation and positive affirmations helps with being able to let yesterdays ‘failures’ not affect today. Even the mediation and positive affirmations took 30 days to start helping so you have to commit to it. Everyday is a new day to be better, to do better and it’s ok if I can’t do everything every day because I’m still growing and learning. Now that my house and environment is under control I can focus on creating a life and figure out who I am. I know this is going to be much more complicated and it will be a road covered with potholes but I have to just keep moving forward but it requires a commitment and it means stepping out of my comfort zone and letting go of the past. That’s much easier to do if I’m not sitting in a house that is cluttered and dirty, its really about taking pride in myself.